I had a meltdown.....

So yesterday I had a meltdown. I’m not proud of it but after thinking about it I think I know what sparked it. People who know me well will know that when I don’t feel well I become a moody cow. Yesterday morning I suddenly got a temporature which quite frankly left me feeling extremely sick and lethargic all day. When I did wake up my husband tried to be loving to me but I didn’t want to know. I know that people are going to interpret this as me falling out of love with my husband when that is far from the truth. I f-cking adore my husband and I didn’t want him to hug me because I was burning up. Pretty normal stuff. After having several phone calls I felt attacked. Bearing in mind I have a beautiful relationship with all the people who rang me yesterday this was odd even for me. I couldn’t figure it out until like 20 minutes ago. Not only was I distracted but I was getting concerned of my physical changes. I’m 8 days late on my period. Usually I bloat up and put on weight. This time I’ve lost a lot and subconsciously I’ve been worried. As for being distracted - I’ve been feeling my depression creep back. At this stage in my life I just want to get my history degree and be a Mum. With everything going on in my head and my immune system being weak I think that I was being a f-cking snowflake and way to sensitive. That’s okay though. I’m human. I’m allowed to have feelings you know